Ciaosu!

• 8:56 pm, Saturday, August 08, 2009

Ugh... I just hate that dreadful feeling...

Y? It wasn't suppose to. I never wanted to feel it again. I really hate it. Maybe i wasn't suppose to come back to reality. Then all this will never happen. Its feels so much like a dream. Like countless dreams being pieced together. Forming a reality that i always hope for. But now i realise. I would rather keep it as a dream. Never wanted it to become reality. Its just too much for me to handle. I hate myself even more now. Hate it for being so useless. I am turning 20. No matter how much i hated reality, i have to face it. Running and running... I know i am not alone now. There are ppl that i know i can trust them as how they trusted me. Its just after the whole world going against me its hard to see the small bit of ppl that are not part of the majority going against me after they exhaust me of my worth to them. I really dunno wat i want and what i should do. I guess my inner self have not change after all. If one day i lose the ones that i have start to trust, i am positive that i am not going to trust anything or anybody again. Saturday... A perfect day to emo...

Mood : Emo